Movies Speak for Me

I am not always the best with words. I don't struggle with saying things that I to totally believe to be said, but sometimes trying to describe how I feel, or what a situation feels like, is hard. However, 99% of the time when I am in a mood, or situation, a scene from a movie comes into my head. It's not something I have knowingly trained myself to do it's something that has just happens.

When something big, small, and seeming unimportant happens I almost always relating it to a movie. Whether I am stuck at work for days on end begging to click my heels and say "There's no place like home" or when I lost my uncle a few years ago and did not listen to the little voice in my heart saying "Hug him and tell him you love him before he leaves". I didn't and he died two days later. I felt like I was Rick Blaine telling Ilsa Lund Laszlo "We'll always have Paris" letting go cause it's better for them but also having to live with the regret of what could have been on the table.

I am a movie nerd that lives in a hugely music era. When my best friend Alaina, who is totally musically orientated, needs to get feelings out she listens to music that either matches her mood, or will cheer her up. I play the movie roles in my head. I know that sounds totally crazy but I have yet to meet someone who relates more to movies than to music.

The more I watch the more addicted I become but the easier it is to get people to understand how I feel. I love music, don't get me wrong, but each song is so very limited to one feeling. Anger, happiness, love, sadness, for just a few minutes. Movies you have more freedom. I mean when you look back on your life do you look at a song list or living working pictures you replay in your head. You look back and you can see how all emotions play out to that one scene, or how if one part of the story was different then the emotions and the plot line could be very different too.

Just like every journey of your life teaches you something so does every movie.

I don't know if anyone is ever going to read this blog, but I think I will enjoy writing about life how I see through movies.

This post is more of a reason why I want to do this, the next post will the the crazy challenge I have put upon myself!