What Ought To Be: May

1. Closer in Faith:  It's spiraled out of control. Every year I start off good for a few month and I always hit a very bad wall. Granted, this year it took way longer to get to this wall, but I have come to it. I was getting lazy before the death of my Grandma, but her death made it worse. I was not super close with her, but going to her funeral was well more than enough to give me crazy amount of anxiety for many reasons. The spiraling of me not praying, and look grip on what feels like everything, has been heightened because I have not been praying or in the word. I will be better, I need to stop thinking that I can fix everything before coming to God and just run to Him. 

2. Lose 50 Pounds: I have only kept up with going to the gym because of the fact that I will be getting paid for that. Diet, and everything else has not been happening. I have either not been eating, or eating out far too often. I know that if I fix the above issue this one will work itself out. I still have time I just need to stop being lazy and scared. 

3. Cook Better: I only made it to two meals. One was a make up from last month and the other was the one I had planned to do with Alaina. I think, besides the meal I made for small group, this was the only two times I cooked anything in my kitchen this month. 

4. Dress for Success: Nope, not even going to go here. I went to work everyday looking like a sack of potatoes. 

5. Speak up: I said a few things in the car to my dad about his driving, that was about it. This month was more about survival than speaking out. 

6. Own the Room: Survival mode. Did not care enough to even try. 

7. Look People in the eye more: Survival, and also didn't want to try and feel like I didn't want to cry so avoided eye contact at all cost this month. 

8. Building Relationships: This one was ok. I was not home for a weekend, and I texted friends some. However, Beth did come for a visit this month and I was glad to see her!

9. Style: 

I bought this shirt for lots of reasons, and none of them are something that I agree with at all. I did not like the neckline, the cut, or the color. When I wear the right cardigan with it I feel better. Honestly, that's really just to cover up the shirt so it's fine. I did get lots of compliments on it, but I'm not going to be making this shirt one of my favorites anytime soon. 

10. Creativity: Yeah, didn't really do anything. Survival mode. 

11. Spoiling: Ok, I did buy a new car! I did that before everything went sideways. It's been in the plan for a while now to buy a new one but I finally did it!

12. Peace: I have not been a peace for a while. In some ways I am at peace about certain things in my life. In general, no. If I sit and talk with God for a few minutes, I feel like God has me. I know that I can be at peace again. It's just a matter of giving it to God. It's hard to give up control. It's harder to realize that I never had the control in the first place, which makes me hold on tighter that I have before.

The Philadelphia Story is classic story of a love triangle... well two love triangles... well maybe it's a love hexagon? Tracy is getting married, however, is it to the right guy? A Story writing and photographer and trying to get the inside scoop, even though they don't want to, and wind up at the wedding. Who is helping them get into the wedding that everyone is talking about? C.K. Dexter Haven, Tracy's ex-husband. However, all of this is rolled up into so much blackmail that everyone is about to be blackballed from the wedding! This is also rolled up into some of the best comedy, so it's all fun and laughs along the way too!

I know that I have written about this movies before, and I know that I will again, but I love this movie. It's really one of my favorites! It's got some of the best actors and writing. If anyone asks for a good classic comedy that is a love story this is one of the ones that I will recommend. 

The meal that went with this movie was, of course, a Philly Cheese Steak. Now, I will say that this meal was blah. The steak really needed some more spices or some sort of marinade. Not like something crazy, but just a little something more with flavor. The drink was ok. It was a Stinger. It was just too much Bandy for me. I would make the meal again, but I would add some stuff and fix it.

Man and wife should always fight for each other.... that is unless it's in court. Adam, and his wife Amanda, are both lawyers that have found themselves in the middle of an insane court battle, each defending a husband and a wife. The wife found her husband cheating and tried to shoot him and his lover. Amanda defends her to show that it's was a crime of passion and you would feel different if the husband was the one who found that his wife was cheating. The questions becomes, will Adam and Amanda stiff find that love that they carried outside of the courtroom all along, or will is just become a pain in Adam's Rib?

It's been a very long time since I have seen this movie. I forgot how much I love seeing Kathrine Hepburn and Spencer Tracy on the screen together. Their scenes when they flirt in the courtroom have to be my favorite. Manly, I think it's because I see them being like that in real life on the set. It's funny, serious, flirty, and almost everything you want in a film.  

Now this meal was interesting to say the very least. It was the mean the Tracy and Hepburn made in the move, Lamb Stew with Aromatic Rice with a Lime Daiquiri. Now, Alaina and I have never worked with Lamb before, and Walmart didn't have the cut I originally wanted, so we had to make due. We had a great time making the meal. We talked a lot about personal stuff, funny stuff, and just being stupid in general. We watched Pitch Perfect and had a great night. We both really enjoyed the meal. I was not sure what I was going to think but it was so good! It will be one the I will be making again! 

Well, I only got to two this month, however, I am doing 4 meals in the month of June and I have already completed one of them! If I can just get back to planning things like I need to I will be able to be on tope of things for this month.. Wish me luck!