So it has been a while since I have updated but I started back to school so fun stuff is out the window but I wanted to add this update because I felt like I needed to.
Now if I haven't already stated this, but really I shouldn't because It's kinnda obvious, but I am not a writer. I am just a girl who likes movies and wants to record her own thoughts. If there is anyone out there who is actually reading my inner nerd then welcome to what I call the hope post.
For whatever reason that last few weeks I have been in a bad slump. Like I have no energy to do anything. Like I don't want to hang out with friends, I don't want to go to work (I really do love my job so for me this is weird), and I don't want to do anything really. I have never been diagnosed with depression but how I imagine what it feels like this would be it. Since I don't want to proclaim that I am depressed I am just going to call it my slump.
However, I feel like I see a way out of the slump. I think that I need to do is just make myself do things. I know that sounds weird but it's the truth. If I get myself to do some things that I don't want to do I start to feel better. The reason that I am saying all of this is because today I was really excited about doing something but it kinnda feel apart...
One of my all time favorite movies is the Classic Rogers and Hammerstein hit Oklahoma. Now, if you are a fan of the movie the title of this post makes a little more sense. Anyhow, I found out a few weeks ago that They were doing a 60th anniversary theater release of the movie in a few cities that the city I live in was one of them. However, it was not in the normal theater that they do this kind of stuff in and it wasn't really advertised. Truly if I did not catch the post of facebook I would have totally missed it.
Well, I buy the tickets and my excitement to see this movie gets interrupted, I got some bad news. No one died or anything but it just was not good news. So, my excited movie watching experience turned into a good movie watching experience we this slight constant worrying in the back of my mind.
However, leave it to movies to give you the very thing that you need to hear right when you need to hear it.
See as much as I love the movie I haven't seen it in almost a year and a half. So some of the finer lessons that come from this movie I don't remember. In the movie Laurie is the girl of Curley's dreams. They have a really playful relationship that I really love! Toward the middle of the movie Laurie turns to her Aunt Eller and asks her why do things need to change. She wants everything to stay the exact same that it is right now. Well, before the bad phone call came that is what I wanted everything was good and I wanted it to stay that way. How the movies go it didn't stay that same for very long. Laurie marries Curley, Judd tries to kill them, and Curley ends up accidentally killing Judd and all of this happens on the wedding day. While they are taking Judd to the Dr. (before he died) Laurie and Aunt Eller start to talking. Laurie asks why did this have to happen? Why do bad things have to happen to happen at all? Aunt Eller then says something that I really needed to hear.
She tells her goes something like this. That you can't account for bad things to happen. What you can do is look at all the good on one side and the bad on the other and say "well ok" to the both of them. I was shocked that really that's the way to look at life. That things are going to happen and after they do that only thing that you can do it look at everything and go ok that happened what now.
Life is really just rolling with the punches and make some choices. Not making choices and rolling with the punches. Right now everything is kinnda sucks. However, I know that this is not going to last forever and I will be ok. I just have to look at both good and bad and find the balance.
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