Tom Hanks Hustle: A Hologram for the King

This is the movie that I really wanted to watch again but also really didn't want to. When I first saw this movie is was in 2016 during my crazy movie year. The day I saw it I had just found out my cousin, Dean, had died in a car accident. I didn't know how to process my emotions so I went to movies.

This movie is about a man who is at his whit's end. He is recently divorced, trying to put his daughter though school, hating his job, and just feel lost overall. He thinks that if he can get his company this deal for a working hologram meeting technology for the King of Saudi Arabia that it might turn his life around.

The reason that I say that this movie helped be to process my emotion was because my cousin died very unexpectant and very young. I had just love my grandma a few weeks before and was trying to understand that when this happened. To this day I can not speak about that tragedy for very long because I breakdown at the unfairness of it all.

Anyways, Feeling that much anger, hurt, confusion, pain, sorrow, worry and all the emotion that come with death I didn't know how to deal with it. I could not keep my mind on one thing about it enough to process anything really. I wanted to scream, cry, hit something or someone, be angry but I could not stick with one emotion long enough to really deal with any of them. My grandma's death wasn't this bad because I thought it might be coming soon because she wasn't in the best health in her final years, and because of her age, and just because sometimes you know it's going to come sooner rather than later. With a death like Dean's it was so out of the blue and such a different type of sorrow. With my grandma I could be at peace that she was not longer suffering or in any sort of pain. I was sad but I could accept her death as her time to go. Dean's was not. His was unnecessary, cruel, unthinkable, and most of all preventable. Totally unfair in every single way.

I had already planned to see this movie before I found what happened. I went to church and I came home and mom told me. I knew that he died in a car crash and I didn't want to know anymore. My parents didn't know I didn't want to know the details. They found out over the phone with my uncle and my dad said it out loud. I ran downstairs and sobbed. I didn't want that imagine in my head but I had it now and it just made me so much more angry.

After I got my self under enough control to be able to do more than just cried I told mom I was going to the movie. I needed to not be around anyone, I needed to not have to think about it if I didn't want to. I didn't want to have to walk away from my parents every time my uncle called. I just didn't want it. I wanted time to breathe. So, I carried on and went to the movie. I didn't kow that it was going to help me in such a huge way. The fact that the character the Mr. Hanks plays in the film is going through very real and painful changes in his life and is feeling a lot of the emotions I was and trying to hide it made for a good film, and healing process for me.

When you are making a film you can have real human emotions but you can't have them all at once or you can't understand the movie. How you layer the film to build off of the current emotion you are showing and the previous emotions shown in the film can really make or break the soul of a movie. This film did it beautifully. We were able to feel the stresses that Mr. Hanks was going though and remember them and kept building a beautiful picture of how he was sorting it all out. In the movie theater that day I was able to forget what happened but was allowed to feel the what the film wanted me to feel in the moment. Because I was giving time to feel and process the emotion watching the movie I felt so much more in control, and at peace with what was going on, than I did when I walked in.

Because I was at a crazy emotional mess when I saw this film I wanted to watch it again to see what I missed, and I didn't because I didn't want to have the same level of emotions that I did that day. However, I am glad I watched it. It really was as good as I remember from the first time and I was able to enjoy it more not being as emotional. It's not the craziest role he has ever done but I think it is one of his more meaningful roles.